The Future

This is going to be my very short rant about being an adult, as it was the first thing I could think of writing. Anyway, at this point in my life, this topic is both exhilarating and scary. I don’t know exactly what I want to study, or what I want to do with my life. People always talk about their lives changing, and things happening that they didn’t expect. I don’t like surprises. I just wish I knew who I would become. If I could look into the future and see what my life would be like, I would.

Being an adult is a big step. I’ll admit adult life isn’t as interesting as I once thought it was. When I was little, I couldn’t wait for the day when I could drive, vote, and work. I thought those were the coolest things in the world, and I wanted to be a part of them. Now I know that it’s not that easy. Being an adult is a lot of responsibility. I don’t even want to start thinking about paying taxes, rent, or insurance.  When you’re an adult, you have to do things on your own and be responsible for your actions. It’s a lot to take on if you’re not ready.

I think I’m on my way to being ready. But I think that although adult life is serious, it’s also a lot of fun. I have a huge bucket list that I want to finish up. I want to get a pet, buy a motorcycle, learn how to do parkour. I want everything from being successful and having a comfortable life to learning how to speak to Russian and how to bake. The future is open for me to make of it what I want. The possibilities are endless, to a certain degree. Don’t you ever think about who you might be in the future, what you could accomplish? I think about it all the time.

The future isn’t such a bad prospect. It is going to be a lot of work, but it’s also going to be a learning experience. I just hope that I’ll be able to look back on my life and be proud of the decisions that I’ve made.

What do I write about?

I don’t know what to write about. I’ve been sitting here, contemplating the screen for a good twenty minutes, but I can’t think of anything. Ok, I’m officially desperate because this is due today. What if I Google a random phrase generator? Maybe it’ll get my creative juices flowing...That didn’t help me at all. What am I supposed to do with something like, “ghostliest refreshment?” What does that even mean? Ok, nope, I’m wasting time, I’m not going to write about that. What about just searching up a list of blog topics?...Ha, no. Out of a list of eighty-one possible blog topics on this website, the only thing I feel I can relate to is hamburgers. Definitely not a good start for a post.

I go through this thought process every time I try to write a blog post. Some weeks it’s not so hard to come up with something to write about, but other times it’s nearly impossible. And the thing is, coming up with something to write about isn’t so hard, but finding something I’m satisfied with is a completely different thing. Some people can spontaneously start writing and end up with a beautiful little couple of paragraphs that they like. I, on the other hand, can’t start out so casually. I am very critical of my own writing, and I end up deleting the majority of the things that I’ve written. It’s something I’ve been trying to get past, but my perfectionist spirit is fighting back.

The freedom to chose what to write is also something that I’ve struggled with. The majority of my school career I was always told what to write. I would grumble about what seemed like an annoying prompt, wishing to get the chance to decide what to talk about, but I would get over it and do the assignment. Getting to choose what to write is uncharted territory, and when I sit down to contemplate it, my mind goes blank. I definitely feel out of my comfort zone, but I’m learning to get past it. It’s honestly fun to have no (reasonable) restrictions about my writing, it’s just different.

Probably the biggest issue I have with finding a good blog topic is that I lose concentration really easily. I’ll be looking up random blog topics, like I do all the time, and then I’ll magically end up on Youtube. Well, not magically, but suddenly I’ll remember a really funny video that I loved and I’ll end up rewatching it. Then that leads to other videos, and then I realized I wasted an hour. Other times I’ll be hungry, go to the kitchen to get food, and then I’ll end up watching a TV show with my mom for the next hour. Needless to say, I don’t get anywhere if I’m not completely focused.

In the scheme of things, though, blogging is very entertaining. Even though I have issues starting out, I think it’s a great creative outlet, and I love that I can express myself the way I want to. It’s just that starting out takes some extra effort on my part because I can get way too picky and distracted!